fuck you internet u also want to shit one me

i just type i bunch of blog and the system told sory for what inconvinient
Cibai
haix
i tend to give her more space to do her own work own privacy since she already with me for the whole day but i was wrong she wants me to be always to be there for her ... for 24 hours
i realise it now... since the last time she prefer do her own stuff during the nite ..i thought she might be want spaces . but sigh
she was very angry today
i dont what should i told her
cuz she dont want to belief for what i talk
all the people same why the always keep reply me back no excuses no excuses . i doesnt give excuse
i only tell truth
she doesnt belief
ok now even worst why you all had to do this to me
i was my homework
i dont know my sim unavailable i was siting at the living room
i was sitting at the place where has the most line . sobx
why so many coinidence ..why ? i duno .. what happen was too fast ....
i don know what she always wanted from me
IM STUPID
YA YOU GOT THAT RIGHT IM STUPID

dont know what to do

i really dont know what to do

it seems like god u are really fooling me

i dont seem like a good person anymore

everytime i try to make things better eventually getting worst

worst than i thought

im not very well thought person

im not reflexive like others

tell me what to do

i dont get it ..

fuck you my phone u are scrap metal asss=hole

living room only sofa corner has the fucking line

ya i cnt seat at the table i cnt seat at my pc table

because will be no such freaking telephone line

im so overwhelm by the homeework this semester

beside i also overwhelm by money problem

always having alot of money problem

i got no time for her

so i tried to dig more time more and more

getting weak n sick

i dont know what to do

always meet the fucking deadline every day except saturday and sunday

every sec i had to think " ei what design should i been putting in my ID"

I dunwant break off with her

although she sometimes really heat me up

she very good actually ... sigh



cant you all more understand me a little bit

just a little bit ... i din ask for much

what i do is always think of others good

i doesnt really like to take advantages on the other people.

my dad was ask me to had a lunch with him

mum ask me to shop some grocceries with her

my dear ask me to buy lunch for her

and I JUST CAME BACK FROM TAEKWANDO !!!!

JUST FREAKIN TIRED

my mum n dad sometimes really doesnt understand what i try to express about

i tell them i want to go to buy something for her to eat n they told me we only go out for and couple and hour and fuck ... 3hours i get bang



at nite i became a workoholic

i dun know why

it just habit

assignment too much and i do until i dono what time was it

when i start to yawn i will stop doing it

i wonder why my phone doesnt rang for so long

i thought she was still sleeping and I continue to work for 50 sketches

and yet when i finally check my phone

FUCK

sim card unavailable

it keep shown sim card unavailable

HLEO GOD THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT treat me like this

i wait whole nite long sitting at the living area and you tell me sim card unavailable

WHAT THE FUCK ...

makes me panic

and the finally i get sscrew from her

since last time my phone keep reach the line la this la that la so ma huan ...i try my best to solve this problem

NOW YOU show sim card unavailable !!!

CIBAI .i thoughhht when i give her room space give her time to do her homework without anyone interupting. give her private space do her own thing ... actually i was wrong ... she was me always sticking with her .. now i only realise this ... i thought she whole morning and noon was with me i though giving her own time to do her stuff ... and i must be contactable

that the problem

i just dont knw why why ppl cnt trust me

i always be reply back by this word " dont give me exxcuse " dont give me excuse ,dont give me excuse.why they just couldnt trust my words

is really happened

i was just doing homework i was just doing my own stuff .. I did not go and search for ladies or any available single lady or my ex .. i doesnt find anyone of them

i reli love u honey i reli do

please forgive me for what i have done wrong

i really love u

if you want me always be around with me

if you want me always be the one irritate u even u are sleep

if you want me always text u or call u i can do it

i will do it

sorry dear

i love u



dun angry anymore k

love u

HOLIDAYS +.+ = TENSION for assignment

holiday.. siao ar
everyday at coll pia till like cow already
assignment non stop hits... until you wanted to pointed F..... to the lecturer even tough holidays lecturer giver ... er 50 sketches + 1 section view + 4 perspective view
holiday also dont want the student relax even for 1 month
i did not do much
trying to do will be very hard for me hhahaha
till today now i know how dangerous is my collage friend they are dangerous than you can even imagine it ... i guess they cant be any better friend after all sigh

i write this blog because "somebody" is kepo kepo wan read hahaha
ok lo .... write crap in the blog zzzz boring
recieve 2 more blade chain from my dear thank you o
you are the most caring dear dear lu
hehehe
want prize ar ?
want a ceremony ??
hahahahahah always buli me
even i want to see the cd in artist gallery also kacau kacau
i very thin ok
not as fat as you thought
HNG!!! hahahahaha
tomorrow start doin homework ??
sure or not ??? dono la
DOTA and WOW ( world of warcraft )
so many games to play hahaha
miss u o dear
i love u

CNY .... zZz

GONG XI FA CAI
&
HAPPY VALENTINES

THIS YEAR SO AWKWARDS both of the day combine together
wonder why the chinese calender put like that
duh +..+ steam at house ...
my dear go back to home town le so boring
every day dota dota clean house dota clean house watch tv sleep research
bloody hell ..
dear dear went to genting bz .. aiya say want sms me in the morning once wake up cheh
hahaha
at 1st i thought her fren give her valentine present guan lai is birthday present aiya
mistaken hahahaha
personally i really dunlike people " pikat" her de lo
cuz i will become very fussy, hot temper
she somemore cnt tell them she with me cuz her fren mouth reli .....
that what she stold me
but nvm ler hehehehe
is ok with me as long she with me ok le
sigh ..............boring ar
gamble at cousin house always lose one
i cant gamble de
WHAT THE FUCK
whenever i gamble i sure lose money
jz whole dam bad luck
dun wan gamble
gamble sucks
watch anime pass time faster
recently watching "eureka Seven"
not bad also .. robots war
CNY 1st day
take ang pow from the all cheah family at cheah kongsi
then went to my 2nd aunt hse take angpow
then folow cousin go karaoke at oriental beside KDU
hhahaha we sing until 9 ++
then had a bah kut teh dinner
then went to flamingo hotel
sleep in a big room
miss my dear lu
but she so bz de
aiya
the nex day dig up by my cousin sister go eat buffet
hahaa breakfast time ..
and then go to god fathers house with mum fuh
tight schedule
not even get to rest
so tired
and yet my mum naggng all the way long we visit a few relatives
until evening i giv up goin out
so tiring urgh
steam
worst than i thought this CNY
almost all my cousin PM in msn wrote
"cny so bored" something like that
they went back early
aiya
dear why so angry de wor tht day ??
sms you din reply ..
call you also let you scold
i also dono wat to do
haix i sad sad er
should tell me parents around at ur aunt hse
i tot u alone tht why call u o
then after that what i do lei is sit infrnt pc
i see laptop ,laptop see me
wat a joke
cousin came my house overnite
wow go hawker centre nia
as if there like night market
too many people
food also expansive
kao mian bao is the toast bread
guess what .. the lady put bu roti (hokkien)
hahaha XD should be roti bakar ler
haha i miss u ler dear
today finally get to see u le o
i love u o dear
i reli do muaks





dun curi my angpow portion har heheh

我是不是很烦？？？？

我到底有没有令人家烦呢？？
我是不是那么的没用呢？？

我有时会怕会烦到别人。。 可能我担心的太多了吧
有时我会想太多了吧。。

有时真的好想掉一滴眼泪
有时真的好想喊很大声
有时真的好想练拳把全身的体力用完 累得爬不起

可是我不能这么做我不能这么弱
可是我有时忍不到
但我想我能做得到
很多东西我可能没有那么的幸运可以拥有
很多东西我可能比较倒霉

我有了三样不会输人
我有一位很好的女朋友 虽然她的脾气有时很霸道 还是那么的爱她
我有艺术天分 不是每个人拿得起笔就可以变美术
我有家庭虽然只是不是很富有 有个很好的爸妈
虽然买不起很多东西 我觉得很足够了

我不想要给人看到我那么的弱
还不是一样的弱
天生吧。。

好想玩篮球
好想把时间停止 和我的女朋友在一起
珍惜 她， 爱着她， 保护她 不管我有多弱都好
很想和她去欧洲 深学 和 伊塔利 和她一起旅行
和她度过人生 让她觉得很幸福

我最不喜欢看到伤心
闷闷不乐， 烦恼
苦脸又安静坐在那儿
好想多问一句 到底有什么事
和她分享每一个烦恼
和她说 ：我爱你



what pops out my mind just jot down
feels better right now..
miss her though ....
don know how she work out with her finals
better do mine also

i love u

exam week +.+

Exam week just around the corner
maybe design department all headache for exam >.<
or maybe nothing happen to them ...
history of art... standby already
technical drawing anytime will do .. just has to test my speed and accuracy of drawing the perspective.... architecture that one not sure
teacher not even mention that
english change teacher ..so boring in the class

during this time at the midnight
miss her alot though..
we had gone alot of places do something crazy
have you ever run down from seven floor
till ground floor just to lazy wait for lift ?
well i do .... me and her had alot of fun time which i really very happy bout that
looking at sea and eating ice cream at gurney drive
people must be looking weird at us

sigh her neck injured maybe sprain during the night she sleep not well
accidentally strain her muscles ...
well i had that before now i remember
takes me weeks to heal
worry bout her much
typo and advertisment must be very hard for her to understand the notes
hmm?? how could i help her

yesterday i such a fool upset her
stupid head make me accidentally sleep
next time i won't do that again

and again my dad last minute skill
he told me that tomorow visit grandma grave i think
and my monk godfather
underneath of my eyes pain... why would that happen
when drive car my tears spill out for no reason

is late already
dun sleep too late

miss her every time the clock ticking

good night

missing you

tuesday ...windy day huh....
maybe the windy day make my nose itchy alot
feel like something irritate my nose... urgh
maizul class ... it not bored but when the classroom close till very dark when the projecting the slides show...my presentation of constantine
got to correct it
- lack of critic ?
-and my own opinion

intro and describe is welldone for me but the rest aiya
bad move... know the mistake
a bad news .. miss alison is leaving
our english class half hanging
no class for this week ....

hah .. and me and her went to red box
noobie singing haha
we both are noobie
wonder how the singer sing so well
hah ... dont worry bout your voice everything is ok ...
we are not pro in singing haha
wonderful day ei but i cant find any material to help me in history of art in MPH book store

KL trip this saturday
errr...... feel like missing something
ya if there were a time she might be going ... err but nvm
exam drawing near so is better stay at home pump up the studies
and i dont want like the other day after came bek from KL
sick in the house

my exam start at 13 OCT 2009
high reisannance art for essay and
remember 20 slides
15 will come out












miss you
good night