dont know what to do

i really dont know what to do

it seems like god u are really fooling me

i dont seem like a good person anymore

everytime i try to make things better eventually getting worst

worst than i thought

im not very well thought person

im not reflexive like others

tell me what to do

i dont get it ..

fuck you my phone u are scrap metal asss=hole

living room only sofa corner has the fucking line

ya i cnt seat at the table i cnt seat at my pc table

because will be no such freaking telephone line

im so overwhelm by the homeework this semester

beside i also overwhelm by money problem

always having alot of money problem

i got no time for her

so i tried to dig more time more and more

getting weak n sick

i dont know what to do

always meet the fucking deadline every day except saturday and sunday

every sec i had to think " ei what design should i been putting in my ID"

I dunwant break off with her

although she sometimes really heat me up

she very good actually ... sigh



cant you all more understand me a little bit

just a little bit ... i din ask for much

what i do is always think of others good

i doesnt really like to take advantages on the other people.

my dad was ask me to had a lunch with him

mum ask me to shop some grocceries with her

my dear ask me to buy lunch for her

and I JUST CAME BACK FROM TAEKWANDO !!!!

JUST FREAKIN TIRED

my mum n dad sometimes really doesnt understand what i try to express about

i tell them i want to go to buy something for her to eat n they told me we only go out for and couple and hour and fuck ... 3hours i get bang



at nite i became a workoholic

i dun know why

it just habit

assignment too much and i do until i dono what time was it

when i start to yawn i will stop doing it

i wonder why my phone doesnt rang for so long

i thought she was still sleeping and I continue to work for 50 sketches

and yet when i finally check my phone

FUCK

sim card unavailable

it keep shown sim card unavailable

HLEO GOD THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT treat me like this

i wait whole nite long sitting at the living area and you tell me sim card unavailable

WHAT THE FUCK ...

makes me panic

and the finally i get sscrew from her

since last time my phone keep reach the line la this la that la so ma huan ...i try my best to solve this problem

NOW YOU show sim card unavailable !!!

CIBAI .i thoughhht when i give her room space give her time to do her homework without anyone interupting. give her private space do her own thing ... actually i was wrong ... she was me always sticking with her .. now i only realise this ... i thought she whole morning and noon was with me i though giving her own time to do her stuff ... and i must be contactable

that the problem

i just dont knw why why ppl cnt trust me

i always be reply back by this word " dont give me exxcuse " dont give me excuse ,dont give me excuse.why they just couldnt trust my words

is really happened

i was just doing homework i was just doing my own stuff .. I did not go and search for ladies or any available single lady or my ex .. i doesnt find anyone of them

i reli love u honey i reli do

please forgive me for what i have done wrong

i really love u

if you want me always be around with me

if you want me always be the one irritate u even u are sleep

if you want me always text u or call u i can do it

i will do it

sorry dear

i love u



dun angry anymore k

love u