misunderstanding .. zz

i duno what else to say

seriously there was dam fuck misunderstanding

I does not even cheating ... i doesnt think that this may cost so much problem

im sick of it...

i mean like we are normal normal friend who talk once in a while in few month

hello is few months !!!! i might talk to her today but nex time i talk to her maybe a few month later

i dont get it...

my wallet got your picture .. come on ... you are my girlfriend you should know right

i everyday looking at you... i din even a second thinking of cheating u

how come since the start you were like hoping me cheat you

i was trying to good with everybody

how come you say me only with girls ?

but seriously after awhile i does not like to helping u in some thing

you does not even care

does even say a thank you or show some appreciation from that

you just say you finish you can go already

you know how i feel?

i feel i being used or being humiliate

when i talk about how fun was my class

you say sharon say thing wasnt correct or either fake one

you know is like wash away my mood.

whenever i bad mood ... do u like even care ?

everyday after work i was hoping listen you said

how are work today, tired ?anything happen there ?

and not shouting at me scolding me disturbing u study

that day i ask u for dinner eating u were screaming at me

YOU WHAT IS FEELS LIKE WHEN YOU FREAKING TIRED

YOU BEING NICE TO SOMEONE AND YOU GET SCREAM !!!

i bet you doesnt know anything happen

fine .. have it your way

i done

i sick of everything

finally i told u

I DOES NOT CHEAT ON YOU SO DONT ACCUSE ME FOR SOME SILLY STUFF OF MY OWN PRIVACY...

I HAVE MY PRIVACY

next time ? there is no next time..

do you know that 1 day got 24 hours ?

in 24 hours i slept 5 hour school stuff 8hours++ include hwk .. .working 4 hours fb only 1 hours plus plus during midnite.... i barely have time to go to flirt

cant you just trust the hell out of me

i just crapping at facebook whatever happen in facebook stays in facebook

i din do a shit about any girls

im not saying u are wrong but be reasonable bit

i stress !!!!! i barely have proper dinner everyday !

dont you even care ?? i work just to earn 400bucks for wat ??!!

i wanna buy you something .. i wan buy u clothes stuff

wallet u ever wanted .. i cnt afford rite now i wan to buy it for u ... u say u duwan waste money on fon.. fine i go work earn money to pay my own phone bill

whenever i call u .. u say bz .. bzz.... after work i call u .. u also bz ...

then i play dota do hwk

jz like tht ... i din go flirt or anything else .. fine have it ur way

im done with it .... i done begging

i dono wat to do seriously

i havent said anything u said all excuse then wat u wan me to say ?

i only want u to trust me

I DIN FLIRT !!!! I DIN LIKE ANYBODY
IM AWAKE NOT SLEEPING !!!!

a long august

oh well here we are august

hungry ghost festival ==

the point is you scare most cause of nothing

self delusion ....

oh well is gonna dark month for me

seriously is really god damm it

give me a break god .....

i don't who should i talk to, someone that i can express my FUCKING STRESS OUT!!! other than my best old pal (TJ)

zzz.... even tj only can give me temporary break time just play what he gives you ==

i not good at keeping .... problem to myself zz

i feel so heavy and overload whenever problem comes to me

new semester is going on 2 week

well intericad rm 1090

course fees pay by myself lol rm4180

police saman rm 300

break 3 glass in 2nd day of work (triple kill) in basin

boss just well ... dark face (i dont dare look to him) do you dare ?? hehahahah

new work is nice for me .. does not overtired

mostly learn bout discipline and well manners .. that what i need for myself

obviously main target is money

ya .. i really sort of out of cash... i din have cash for myself to spend

my dad work twice harder than usual

zzz ....hmmm .. the best way i working for my own pocket money

homework need 30 ++ tiles to go

research more than usual

some are impossible research

well i guess im abit wrong for sometimes

may be to over for sometimes

i din realise my attitude getting worst sometimes

ya there is someone frustrating bout me

I had enough with all those scolding blaming irresponsible thingy

i get it I get IT !! i not stupid or retard

i just lost my way

cant you all just guide me abit

zzz lol urgh off to bed......

cant anyone just understand me more bit

holidays going on

holiday going on so far ... boring ...

nobody at penang no where to go nothing to do

worst thing is internet down for gaming only i can't play a game

no dota no game

watch show . show gonna end sometimes right..

ok i got to do something ya ID1 rendering ...i dono when i gonna start doing cause i doesnt not feel liking to do it==.... i just wanna live in my own world for a moment

when school start i gonna stop gaming

today is monday

well

it is almost a week that my girlfriend out of penang

so what can I do is .. stay at house do shit

hah...

well TC 2 reunion dinner

is not quite actually is Tc2 dinner

i think is more on scout and rover ajk dinner zz

the members does not much

most of it is the committee

from year ... i don't know maybe 2002 until 2010 ... and most of it are scouts ...amount of guides is by using ur finger also can count

very a little all the committee . and the rest outsider i tak tau siapa tu

ok 1st of it i met all my old friend hahaha

we joke and laugh

well some of my friend grown fat and some of it blonde hair long hair.. lol

lye boon and harjinder still the same gila gila

and as for my table our committee come 8 out of 9

not bad huh

as usual we fool like no one else business

we played some game hah

lame game

is quite fun when we actually become form 1 2 again haha .. but the worst thing was we shout in the hotel == haha

in the end we all out of voice .. ler ......

at the end of the day all go home with tireness but we still go to such a quiet pub haha

looking my friend sing song .. boring sit there talking with others after that all when back to house .. well see you all

is hard to see everyone together and do stupid stuff

you never what it is

but you sure know that is gonna fun after all hahah

hmm.. my girlfriend is at KL and genting shopping hmm

miss her .. but did she miss me hahah

have fun in your vacation hehe

wow this year go to genting the third time damm nice man

i wish i could folow too

well er ... miss u alot

now you at pantai

doin wat o ??

bz-ing ? hehe

at pantai 1 week gonna do wat o ?? hehe

faster come back ya hehe

germay 3rd and school holidays

hmm what should i do ??

errr... go to lepak where lei

budget problem la wei sienz

nid to buy taekwando uniform somemore boot camp zz

too many stuff .. haiya

come to think of it .. i din get to spend for myself also aiya

hmm .. well wednesday got exam autocad

okok la can do

but maizul stuff how do i gonna pass to him tomorrow

err... hmm saturday melvin do birthday party at batu ferringhi

barbeque ?? errr. dono eat wat la

makan pisang ... zzz hahaha

hmm a few weeks more left

what i think for now is

now is holiday but i don feel relax because the other sem gonna start soon

and i feel like now is just for me to rest and then continue with semester

my mum call me go work

wat the hell so tired ler somemore work

is true tht i can get money but i dun feel like working

hmmm ... well but i need money too for spending for myself

i cnt like high school spending for foods only

so working is not a bad idea

but working makes ur homeworks drops alot ...

so still considering

today i found out something really trigger my mind

is that aaron best friend fed up with him cuz

he everyday ask him go out

once or twice is ok

but he said aaron almost everyday ask him out so

mean he is FUCKING LYING in presentation

say he no time la what la

bunch of shit

if think that u go out and then can finish work fine have it ur way

but don;t you dare say that you got 6 subject and yet u have no time

and you call Fahmi to say that we does not like come on ... if u good enough we sure welcome u as friend .. but please don't use your excuse make us looks like a clown ..

bunch of noobs ,... hahahah

what kind of word bunch of noobs

hehe

getting late dear

good nite har

dun get cold

world cup la wei

so late wan
sleepy ler world cup
at nite so cold fuiyo
writing essay haha
what to write lei lame zzz
okok 1st of all dissapointed of germany
paul the octopus i wan fried u to eat already haaha
tomorow sunday errr do wat lei err .. stil playing comp ?
gonna find something interesting to do hmm
nid to photocopy my perspective somemore lol
play alot of dota match blur always hang hang hang pek chek die alot kill less less haix ya
ah dear whole day do wat har
sure watch tv wan hor har
naughty har din do hwk
"tiak" u er
guai guai study har nt until late late wan
dun laugh i tell u hng heheheh
i monday school
then wednesday morning exam
and thursday english we same same wan lu heheh
then reli holiday d
dear when we start open school har ??
lazy go college d ler
id 2 and 3 sien
see lecturer face also bo lat haha
my blog rojak all haha
dun laugh
miss me mou ?
so many days din see me le hahaha
k la do homework ar
dun curi tengok hehe
good nite o dear

haloha ....

chilling nite ..cold as usual makes me wanted to sleep but no way
somebody ask me write something o hahah
who was it lei
my dear lo
dun laugh
i know u laugh
you har always the most naughty wan
accidentally throw the pepprer wrapper into ur fries
dun angry ka ookko ok la
hahah miss u lu dear
ish ish
tiak u er
blex
dun naughty o i tell u
tonite no nid sleep d see football hahaha
half n hour more
some ppl say spain win
dono how la hahaha
nw tv do titanic
hehe tml u can wake up meh
sure like pig pig wan u heheh
dun curi see ppl blog later police can catch wan lo hahaha
blex
misss u lu k
see u tml la dear
sleep early ar
i also wan sleep d
headache lo
hhehe today whole day at gurney actually is do ntg
is lepak lepak and play "ting ting"
hehe k la i love u

journey end here

well errr i guess relationship has ended
sigh wat to do ...i guess im not the one for her ...
but at least dun argue .. u get wat i mean
nah... she will never reli listen to my word never ohh well
she like to go her own way
probably my fault also but then
you really correct ur attitude you know is like
you should give n take
you should not everythingand must follow you
sometime take people advise mix some friends
changing idea
this is the issue here .. you never really learn how to give and take
everyone do mistakes
when u does it realise something wrong apologize then every thing will be great though...
well some mistake are to be broken up
what i have learn was i should shut up more than i talk
and i should not talk back on people ...i have change alot ...
every broken heart makes u stronger
accpet the facts .dun cry. face it . you sure will feel better
or find something to do ... forget the pain
know the pain, feel the pain
wait wait wait ... im not pein zzz haha
o well ... after this lesson
i have learn dont try to talk back on a person it feels hurts when it come back to us

fuck you internet u also want to shit one me

i just type i bunch of blog and the system told sory for what inconvinient
Cibai
haix
i tend to give her more space to do her own work own privacy since she already with me for the whole day but i was wrong she wants me to be always to be there for her ... for 24 hours
i realise it now... since the last time she prefer do her own stuff during the nite ..i thought she might be want spaces . but sigh
she was very angry today
i dont what should i told her
cuz she dont want to belief for what i talk
all the people same why the always keep reply me back no excuses no excuses . i doesnt give excuse
i only tell truth
she doesnt belief
ok now even worst why you all had to do this to me
i was my homework
i dont know my sim unavailable i was siting at the living room
i was sitting at the place where has the most line . sobx
why so many coinidence ..why ? i duno .. what happen was too fast ....
i don know what she always wanted from me
IM STUPID
YA YOU GOT THAT RIGHT IM STUPID

dont know what to do

i really dont know what to do

it seems like god u are really fooling me

i dont seem like a good person anymore

everytime i try to make things better eventually getting worst

worst than i thought

im not very well thought person

im not reflexive like others

tell me what to do

i dont get it ..

fuck you my phone u are scrap metal asss=hole

living room only sofa corner has the fucking line

ya i cnt seat at the table i cnt seat at my pc table

because will be no such freaking telephone line

im so overwhelm by the homeework this semester

beside i also overwhelm by money problem

always having alot of money problem

i got no time for her

so i tried to dig more time more and more

getting weak n sick

i dont know what to do

always meet the fucking deadline every day except saturday and sunday

every sec i had to think " ei what design should i been putting in my ID"

I dunwant break off with her

although she sometimes really heat me up

she very good actually ... sigh



cant you all more understand me a little bit

just a little bit ... i din ask for much

what i do is always think of others good

i doesnt really like to take advantages on the other people.

my dad was ask me to had a lunch with him

mum ask me to shop some grocceries with her

my dear ask me to buy lunch for her

and I JUST CAME BACK FROM TAEKWANDO !!!!

JUST FREAKIN TIRED

my mum n dad sometimes really doesnt understand what i try to express about

i tell them i want to go to buy something for her to eat n they told me we only go out for and couple and hour and fuck ... 3hours i get bang



at nite i became a workoholic

i dun know why

it just habit

assignment too much and i do until i dono what time was it

when i start to yawn i will stop doing it

i wonder why my phone doesnt rang for so long

i thought she was still sleeping and I continue to work for 50 sketches

and yet when i finally check my phone

FUCK

sim card unavailable

it keep shown sim card unavailable

HLEO GOD THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT treat me like this

i wait whole nite long sitting at the living area and you tell me sim card unavailable

WHAT THE FUCK ...

makes me panic

and the finally i get sscrew from her

since last time my phone keep reach the line la this la that la so ma huan ...i try my best to solve this problem

NOW YOU show sim card unavailable !!!

CIBAI .i thoughhht when i give her room space give her time to do her homework without anyone interupting. give her private space do her own thing ... actually i was wrong ... she was me always sticking with her .. now i only realise this ... i thought she whole morning and noon was with me i though giving her own time to do her stuff ... and i must be contactable

that the problem

i just dont knw why why ppl cnt trust me

i always be reply back by this word " dont give me exxcuse " dont give me excuse ,dont give me excuse.why they just couldnt trust my words

is really happened

i was just doing homework i was just doing my own stuff .. I did not go and search for ladies or any available single lady or my ex .. i doesnt find anyone of them

i reli love u honey i reli do

please forgive me for what i have done wrong

i really love u

if you want me always be around with me

if you want me always be the one irritate u even u are sleep

if you want me always text u or call u i can do it

i will do it

sorry dear

i love u



dun angry anymore k

love u

HOLIDAYS +.+ = TENSION for assignment

holiday.. siao ar
everyday at coll pia till like cow already
assignment non stop hits... until you wanted to pointed F..... to the lecturer even tough holidays lecturer giver ... er 50 sketches + 1 section view + 4 perspective view
holiday also dont want the student relax even for 1 month
i did not do much
trying to do will be very hard for me hhahaha
till today now i know how dangerous is my collage friend they are dangerous than you can even imagine it ... i guess they cant be any better friend after all sigh

i write this blog because "somebody" is kepo kepo wan read hahaha
ok lo .... write crap in the blog zzzz boring
recieve 2 more blade chain from my dear thank you o
you are the most caring dear dear lu
hehehe
want prize ar ?
want a ceremony ??
hahahahahah always buli me
even i want to see the cd in artist gallery also kacau kacau
i very thin ok
not as fat as you thought
HNG!!! hahahahaha
tomorrow start doin homework ??
sure or not ??? dono la
DOTA and WOW ( world of warcraft )
so many games to play hahaha
miss u o dear
i love u

CNY .... zZz

GONG XI FA CAI
&
HAPPY VALENTINES

THIS YEAR SO AWKWARDS both of the day combine together
wonder why the chinese calender put like that
duh +..+ steam at house ...
my dear go back to home town le so boring
every day dota dota clean house dota clean house watch tv sleep research
bloody hell ..
dear dear went to genting bz .. aiya say want sms me in the morning once wake up cheh
hahaha
at 1st i thought her fren give her valentine present guan lai is birthday present aiya
mistaken hahahaha
personally i really dunlike people " pikat" her de lo
cuz i will become very fussy, hot temper
she somemore cnt tell them she with me cuz her fren mouth reli .....
that what she stold me
but nvm ler hehehehe
is ok with me as long she with me ok le
sigh ..............boring ar
gamble at cousin house always lose one
i cant gamble de
WHAT THE FUCK
whenever i gamble i sure lose money
jz whole dam bad luck
dun wan gamble
gamble sucks
watch anime pass time faster
recently watching "eureka Seven"
not bad also .. robots war
CNY 1st day
take ang pow from the all cheah family at cheah kongsi
then went to my 2nd aunt hse take angpow
then folow cousin go karaoke at oriental beside KDU
hhahaha we sing until 9 ++
then had a bah kut teh dinner
then went to flamingo hotel
sleep in a big room
miss my dear lu
but she so bz de
aiya
the nex day dig up by my cousin sister go eat buffet
hahaa breakfast time ..
and then go to god fathers house with mum fuh
tight schedule
not even get to rest
so tired
and yet my mum naggng all the way long we visit a few relatives
until evening i giv up goin out
so tiring urgh
steam
worst than i thought this CNY
almost all my cousin PM in msn wrote
"cny so bored" something like that
they went back early
aiya
dear why so angry de wor tht day ??
sms you din reply ..
call you also let you scold
i also dono wat to do
haix i sad sad er
should tell me parents around at ur aunt hse
i tot u alone tht why call u o
then after that what i do lei is sit infrnt pc
i see laptop ,laptop see me
wat a joke
cousin came my house overnite
wow go hawker centre nia
as if there like night market
too many people
food also expansive
kao mian bao is the toast bread
guess what .. the lady put bu roti (hokkien)
hahaha XD should be roti bakar ler
haha i miss u ler dear
today finally get to see u le o
i love u o dear
i reli do muaks





dun curi my angpow portion har heheh