我是不是很烦？？？？

我到底有没有令人家烦呢？？
我是不是那么的没用呢？？

我有时会怕会烦到别人。。 可能我担心的太多了吧
有时我会想太多了吧。。

有时真的好想掉一滴眼泪
有时真的好想喊很大声
有时真的好想练拳把全身的体力用完 累得爬不起

可是我不能这么做我不能这么弱
可是我有时忍不到
但我想我能做得到
很多东西我可能没有那么的幸运可以拥有
很多东西我可能比较倒霉

我有了三样不会输人
我有一位很好的女朋友 虽然她的脾气有时很霸道 还是那么的爱她
我有艺术天分 不是每个人拿得起笔就可以变美术
我有家庭虽然只是不是很富有 有个很好的爸妈
虽然买不起很多东西 我觉得很足够了

我不想要给人看到我那么的弱
还不是一样的弱
天生吧。。

好想玩篮球
好想把时间停止 和我的女朋友在一起
珍惜 她， 爱着她， 保护她 不管我有多弱都好
很想和她去欧洲 深学 和 伊塔利 和她一起旅行
和她度过人生 让她觉得很幸福

我最不喜欢看到伤心
闷闷不乐， 烦恼
苦脸又安静坐在那儿
好想多问一句 到底有什么事
和她分享每一个烦恼
和她说 ：我爱你



what pops out my mind just jot down
feels better right now..
miss her though ....
don know how she work out with her finals
better do mine also

i love u

exam week +.+

Exam week just around the corner
maybe design department all headache for exam >.<
or maybe nothing happen to them ...
history of art... standby already
technical drawing anytime will do .. just has to test my speed and accuracy of drawing the perspective.... architecture that one not sure
teacher not even mention that
english change teacher ..so boring in the class

during this time at the midnight
miss her alot though..
we had gone alot of places do something crazy
have you ever run down from seven floor
till ground floor just to lazy wait for lift ?
well i do .... me and her had alot of fun time which i really very happy bout that
looking at sea and eating ice cream at gurney drive
people must be looking weird at us

sigh her neck injured maybe sprain during the night she sleep not well
accidentally strain her muscles ...
well i had that before now i remember
takes me weeks to heal
worry bout her much
typo and advertisment must be very hard for her to understand the notes
hmm?? how could i help her

yesterday i such a fool upset her
stupid head make me accidentally sleep
next time i won't do that again

and again my dad last minute skill
he told me that tomorow visit grandma grave i think
and my monk godfather
underneath of my eyes pain... why would that happen
when drive car my tears spill out for no reason

is late already
dun sleep too late

miss her every time the clock ticking

good night

missing you

tuesday ...windy day huh....
maybe the windy day make my nose itchy alot
feel like something irritate my nose... urgh
maizul class ... it not bored but when the classroom close till very dark when the projecting the slides show...my presentation of constantine
got to correct it
- lack of critic ?
-and my own opinion

intro and describe is welldone for me but the rest aiya
bad move... know the mistake
a bad news .. miss alison is leaving
our english class half hanging
no class for this week ....

hah .. and me and her went to red box
noobie singing haha
we both are noobie
wonder how the singer sing so well
hah ... dont worry bout your voice everything is ok ...
we are not pro in singing haha
wonderful day ei but i cant find any material to help me in history of art in MPH book store

KL trip this saturday
errr...... feel like missing something
ya if there were a time she might be going ... err but nvm
exam drawing near so is better stay at home pump up the studies
and i dont want like the other day after came bek from KL
sick in the house

my exam start at 13 OCT 2009
high reisannance art for essay and
remember 20 slides
15 will come out












miss you
good night

my luck busted in 100 %

facebook said that
today sunday .. early morning had to wake up
blurring as usual but today i gonna going out with her again
we going to the lion dance competition
there alot spectators and of course the photographer all act pro pro
all their lens are big enough to wack people haha
her D5000 .. without big lenses cant zoom in
admiring people camera at there is what we do
unlike me dont know anything bout camera....

after that shopping at pragin mall .. i wanted
the braclet for very long d the braclet was brown in colour and have two strips of thin belt
in the end out of stock oledi aiya
nvm nvm hehe find another new ones....

after that having MCD in the car were something cool enough to do that
and errmmm ... something something which was happen (secret)
i just keep for myself it would be better to be remain secret for now

we went to beach to have something sea breeze
something funny happens
one of the dogs doesnt scared us it even shit infront of us
is like what the hell
coming to beach instead of enjoy the sea breeze laugh at the blurry dog...

(edited by her)
enjoying the sea breeze with her
what a happy lucky day

sometimes happy moment we choose to remember it
because the feeling happiness is can't be wrote out or type
i really had a happy day












good nite !!!
miss you alot !!!

now you see now you don't

just reach home 1 hour ++ ago
go gurney in the afternoon ... reject the invitation from adeline for the red box
and instead of that me and her go for movie called "gamer"
"Gamer" by gerard butler who was from the "300" leonanidas the king of Spartan
the movie was quite ok .. if add more war scene it will be nicer .. the story go too fast
i wonder not so much people fancy bout it...
haha

and after that we went for padini concept store ... ok her taste of shirt i love it
haha bought a new dark brown shirt ... cant wait to wear go out
then we went to popular study interior design
get alot of inspiration through the book and her opinion
did u all see before room without doors or maybe simple style make the house looks cool or either toilet with big transparent window
hah i guess most of people will be embarrass to bath in that house
but "belum try belum tau, sekali try hari hari mau"
i really i gonna build that design

she sometimes will give me alot of idea ...
today very happy got to see her again
actually i can see her alternate day
today will see her
tomorrow will not see her
another day will see her again

next week school reopen
mid term exam drawing near
don know whether she could cope with her lec notes ?
somemore she sick aiya....
finally we found out she bit allergic with perfumes smells
i think so
strong perfume smell makes people headache
smells too good also not good ar
smells too bad also disgusting
smells normal is the best way

today feeling very happy
got to hold her
and we shop cold storage for a quite sometime
in the end only a bottle of mineral water haha
getting late
remember close light
remember take off your specs
remember blankets on



















miss you
good nights ................muak

happy birthday chee huey

early morning i woke up early still worrying what she angrying
doing house work and play game
and after that i go out with her to gurney
we decide to buy a cute lamp for the birthday girl
chee huey who was my classmate
and we celebrate at rain's house
haha you should try out vegetarian bbq
not that oily as the normal one
hehe batu ferringhi traffic jam...
what the hell hhahaha

and i fetch my lecturer go there too
she got a car dizzy
haix ... stupid malaysian
btw ....i m malaysian too haha why malaysian so kepo wat hapen at the road side

haha during the barbeque we fried the potato chips
you should try this and then put some mayonis it taste marvelous haha
but dont eat too much cause it will gain alot of weight hah

after that me and her went for shopping at night market
you know cheap stuff there huh
the bag seller could regconise we two already
ok today i very happy cause i could hold her hand a while....
and i know the truth that she angry of me because i dint rest well
okok ..... i promise you o hehe
but you also must rest alot ler
dont make me worry ler
and today i made a promise to her
cut down dota-ing
tomorrow on ward i cut down playing already unless she wants to play together with me
centaur and yurnero

after that we had our ice cream at the road side
in car ler of course

finally went home write blog
holiday for one week
when i could see her again ??
looking forward

next movie gonna watch
GAMER !!!!













going late already
good night
miss you much

sori

sori sori sori sori sori sori sori sori sori sori sori sori sori sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorrry sorrrry sorrrry sorry sorrrry sorrrrry sorry sorrrrry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorrry sorrry sorrry sorry sorry sorrry sorrry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorrry sorry sory sorrrrry sorrrry sigh

sigh .. what i have done..

yesterday was saturday
early in the morning heavy rain
cold weather for all of us in penang
i need to wake up early to prepare campfire dance
and then at night had to go batu ferringhi with her haha
cant wait to see her .. even though almost everyday i saw her
haha then was about time..
the campfire starts .. our dance opening
haha looks awful to me cause 3 days works can how
somemore i was furious bout what they have done
ok 1st of all they did not prepare anything
2ndly they bring the member to campfire
and the member nt even know what is campfire
urgh !! 3rdly my god bro start smoking
and my school gkk teach do something fuck.. he kept the invitation letter
don want let my scout went to the campfire

during the night and i rush home to prepare myself go to the batu feringhi haha
wow saw alot of stuff i wanted to buy but not enough cash
haha me her and her cousin
from what i saw from them is ... they bargain the price reli .... fuh pro
i saw watches but reli cant find what i actually want it
i did a few hehe she choose for me
i like that.... haha
when going back time i let her cousin drive my car
ok when we reach traffic light i should become driver back
during the switching place
the green light on
and the car behind sure shock that what i have done
haha....
then today sunday morning had to wake up for dim sum
the 1st thing i wake up im so dizzy
ok is not the kind that not enough sleep
migrain again
when i drive car i almost knock a few things
when i came home just blur
then after i talk to her in the phone
i went for a nap
and then i on9 with her then i fall asleep
then when i wake up .. i think she already angry me
haix ... why did i go roll on the bed ler sigh
she now doesnt talk much to me
what i have done wrong so sori to her
how could i apologize to her
sigh
really sad now
almost a year that i din have this feeling
today this feeling come back again
i don know what i have wrong
sobx







miss her
good night

lazy day

today morning so warm
fuh.... the sun does not burn
wearing jacket blow some cold aircon and stuck at the traffic light with music on
feels sleepy and does not comb hair either....

technical drawing getting on hand
to be a great designer
need to act fast and think fast
today just draw two evaluation takes four hours
wow.. drawing precisely every single stroke
eye pop out ler

today super blur er.. head bit dizzy dizzy
just now at class dota again
first blood in within 1 minute not bad
1st time did that

tomorrow will be maizul randomness picking who will be presenting
fuh .. wearing new shirt and new tie but not new pants
wish me luck

today she luck is not in her hand
she could not take her photo which was printed by the shop
if i could follow her go she might be able to take the photos
dun like to see her in bad mood condition
she happy i will glad bout that

the time had pass so long
hector and tylett does not recover back yet
sick of looking them like that...
just hope them could be strong back
why does "them" need to these stuff to them
come on la do they just think that relationship just something you can make fun of it
cheh.. why would i care ahaha

now reading trajan and constantine stuff
why roman did this and that haha kinda fun
MARCUS ULPIA NERVA TRAIANUS = trajan






















miss you
did you miss me ??
goodnight

my new homework ... hah

quite a few day din write blog though...
ei so fast another week going to end already
the day moving so fast not even can call a time out
just came back from queensbay mall with her and her cousin
haha long time dint eat Japanese food already.... my favorite food

next week holiday for all of us .. hari raya
21st will be chee huey birthday at rain's house batu ferringhi

KHOO KONGSI .... so hard to find u
please la sign board dun simply put .. the arrow was pointing at the corridoor with dead end
visitor so dumb like me .. find until there .. temple close
haha

mbs campfire just two days more
wilson you want me teach dance around these days !!!
what the !! dance i s not something just simply perform
need time to master it no just two or three days
k.h how could you suddenly ask 200 bucks from me
sai la ... you all organize usaha camp since you all so pro
how could you all lack of money
ask boo leong la or piow la they rich eh ma
find me do wat ....

I WANNA QUIT ALL THESE STUFF
Bring ntg to me ... i slowly find all these meaningless ... scouts ???
huh ...consume time alot
better do my stuff
that why so many senior leave....

today just bought a new formal shirt for presentation
black and blue stripes and sky blue tie
not bad .. like that shirt once i wore it
of course her taste .... haha

why some ladies doesnt like do execise but they can walk in a shopping mall for hours
opposite... men like to run around do sports but when comes to shoping they mostly like end up with surender hahahaha .....
this was my new homework
writing blog haha






















miss her alot
good night blex

not in the mood dude

fuhh .. tired tired tired of money stuff
i just get all the day long just to pay the debt of the saman
the nex day welcome a new one "saman"
fuck that cops .. where do you expects our students park
urgh... ok i not gonna not gonna care bout that

my stupid comp cant you just stop spamming something rubbish
and the mouse oh GOD for heaven sake cant you just function well for one day
ok facebook spoil.. why everyone else can function except mine !!!!!

damm tired with these ...haix

light craft workshop visit ... i lost my college tag ... so i had to change into casual from formal clothes from college go to the workshop again .. okay i found my tag .. guess what .. rain !! i was riding motor ... ugrh what a day .... "sigh"

cheh dun want think le la ... sick
ystd and today din see her much ...
approximately not more than 2 hour
her homework alot ... errr i not so sure how to help out
im interior designer different frm her
if i can help would be better
i just hope that she can rest more ...

tomorrow saturday again ...
er... what to do ????
study ??























miss her lots
"too close to comfort " good song
goodnight

final destination 4??

err.. that not bad
kinda shocking but not as scary as the 3rd wan
cause the character die more faster than the previous one
the 3rd wan is like torturing the character then only die hahahaha
errr.. how come she no reaction wan har .... wondering
she not even blink her eye much
wow kinda cool .....

was watching with all my fellow friend and mr ellison my lecturer ..
my lecturer he is a monk and he is coolest lecturer you ever know
he could follow we all teenager go for a movie. hahaha
he was about going back his own hometown
we will be miss him alot

from what i know this year and next year there will be alot of great movie going to show on
i search for the coming soon movie trailer hah
i want to watch gamer !!!!
of course with her also

maizul giving homework history of art
much more better than malaysian shit history
all those muhamad bla bla bla make me sick
at least roman history even more better.....
and new asssignment modify penang building become like roman /greek architecture
wow i love to modify it hahaha
khaliq wants penang high court become greek high court ...

sigh tuesday i cant even see her much
she get flu .. i wonder was it i pass down to her ??
worry worry worry worry worry worry worry

sometimes i really wanted to hold her hand but cant
sigh ... nvm ler heheh


wonder why i so bad luck ler saman the 1st one
car key lock in the car the 2nd one
the braclet she gave me which i precious so much i lost it at somewhere while i was still wearing IT going for collage for study .... UGRH !!! fed up
i hope she wont mind i lost it accidentally.. haix
so emo haha

these days my classmates "heng" emo .... all emo emo emo emo ??
really bad day for them too i dont know how to help them

if can i would love to help












tomorrow class gonna be technical boring
not technical drawing hahahaha
good nite














miss her much

SORRY SORRy

SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY

super junior sorry sorry song ??? haha i gone crazy d

SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRy

slowly step by step

chilly weather these days +.+
with flu .. like sick people strolling around hah
so called 'old man'
how old am i....

err... i finally told her that i really like her
fuh .. I don know whats give me this courage.. just spill off my mouth but of cause just by sms
stupid me... should tell face by face mer
but now the time is not right yet
if either one side is not prepare for this relation .. is really not gonna work you know...
i learn this last year ...
but ... turn out more complicated abit ... "secret" hah myself know can already
chinese always says "see one step walk one step" ler ... traslete to chinese yourself lazy to change font already hahaha...

i know it would be difficult road but is fine i can do it!!!!... step by step
no hardness where can get the comfortness
some day some how .. turns out miracle....
i will remain this feeling... im sure im seing the right person that what i taught ...

we go for jogging ... alright something shit happen
ok i was too happy to see her... guess what my car key lock inside the car
so what on my hand was my handphone... ok get screw by mum on the phone cause need house key..to retrive another spare key

get screw by mum again cause she was not guarding my car cause scare of car hijacking
come on la ... kancil who wants ... and how could i just left her alone standing there if anything happens who knows .. make some lie hahah so mum does not scold. luckily she was beside me comforting me abo sure emo like what d la

i was so blur ler...
haha saturday just another boring day ... visit aunt and 91 years old grandpa...
haix he is getting weaker each day... sad ler
and during the night my sis broke my mp3 modulator( mp3 player which plant inside the car)
shit!!! dont nid to listen song anymore ...


getting blur here






































miss her ......
good night

Getting start new semester and it just the beginning

ok SHIT everything just the beginning !!
getting new class .. trying to cope the subjects
getting in same class with the seniors
ok trying to win them is not that easy as you can imagine that
getting lust of wanted to win..

taking thing too seriously is it will make yourself unconscious??
so hard to put you down... eve
but I think this is the time I really should put you down
NO .. i already put down quite sometimes already
cause you are making me fucking sick !!!

well starting of the semester as usual money money money buying stuff huh
alots to buy though.. sad
so I was thinking I not gonna see "you" again
cause you are not same class with me already
kinda sad...
many ppl were confuse why I admire you ..hahah
i don know why too
you got your style girl... that why i like it
err when was it i start admire u ?? erm... the day when i drove your car we go gurney .....
you talk alot to me though and i never felt bored
hahah... and when you are doing your work .. you just keep quiet .. looks cool
sometimes you just drove my attention away ...

whenever with I with you i wont felt tired
after all the class going on...
haha terminator meh ...

DROPPED down hard felings

all presentation are done !!!
WOW!!
super duper tired
hah ..... ei i got the feeling of no target of life
is it I do assignment till ki siao liao hahaha
nah for the potrait i done something unsatisfied by myself
so the lec wasnt impress
he say i can do much better
nvm next sem i will dominate every subject

I got one freaking incident that stop my heart for a sec
Daphny, while she and I walking towards car park
suddenly there was a car came by the junction
i manage to grab her arm pull her luckily the car know how to avoid also ler
if not ........................

today sunday I go for GOSTAN FORWARD performance
suppose is for graphic and digital student
why the hell interior go there pula
haha .. holiday for one month so boring
missing somebody ... shhhh
tomorrow going movie again
wakakaka

Semester break Started

last two day i go for bondori
not bad ... having fun lye boon and lye aun and yee seng
they are crazy man ... there are 1 game which was hooking up the water balloon I not even manage to get one and look how they get
total with 17 balloons carried by me .. haha some granny asking whether i could sell to her to give her grandson .. haha ...
afternoon i just sleeping whole day long ... bored
SUNDAY

as usual be a driver ...
during taekwando having free sparing with other black belt
injured my leg and finger manage to drill trough their block to getting points
*OUCH*... sigh

sometimes I was thinking if now I was in a relationship with some other trustworthy girl it will be better .. but some of my lady friend not as easy as I taught... my ex rang up my phone just to make sure that number is mine
ok is like what the hell you breaking up with me long time ago and u want to make sure this is my number for what ? you dont need me also.

wednesday -presentation
thursday - visitors from UK
friday -kdu graffiti comp helper needed
saturday- sejarah exam (wasting my time)

another boring day had pass

_____END____________________________________________________________

Piercing my vains

This is my final project of Drawing and Painting
I name it as AVP revolution

with the hard work of 1 month.. finally done
with different kinds of 3D items
-alien
-predator
-claws
-blade
-tail
-skull



PROCESS OF ALIENS








the process of making alien with many layers of wall filler, smooth it with sand paper
color it with chrome and black spray, paint it with white acrylic and use chopstick and sharpen it with blade to make each tooth of the alien

PREDATOR MASK

the feeling of war, you can see the scratches by the aliens ,half of the mask is "wack" by the alien
with spray of the chrome spray which are metallic spray plus brown, black, and white give the feeling of rusting and thrust into battle.

injured alien finger

blade of the predator

by using mounting board to craft out the blade and the blade holder
paint with acrylic and hot glue stain to make the blood stain of the aliens on the tip of the blade

BLOODY SKULL

hot glue to make the blood stain and painted with red color
and the skull can see through


ALIEN's TAIL

MAYAN TEMPLE

using wire and musking tape make the bones of the tails
maintain the shape with hot glue and wall filler

color wash on the temple looks real actually is printed black and white and paint it with acrylic paint. background with oil paint


ok.. during presentation 1stly I lost my design book contain different view of each design and measurement of all of my items and get scolded and get low marks. WTF!!!
Go in the room with empty handed plus sleepy mood ... drop dead inside
my friend tylett barely survive in the presentation because his partner keep their design
*sigh* i wanted to impress the lecturers but it seems like they are not
ok one of my lec maizul doesnt give any attention on my presentation
from the moment i know , die d ....
maybe my design was too crampy ...
this is what I feel when I done this ...
all of the items are craft by foam by myself and using my own blade
after i place all my items on board i found that is too heavy
SHIT this is out of my calculation.. I plan everything except
FOR THIS STUPID OVERLOAD WEIGHT
my board begin to crack i had to place another board behind and gum it with wall filler
TOMORROW IS THE PRESENTATION !!! CANT DRY IN TIME
THIS IS THE THING CAUSE FAILURE of my presentation
wonderful front but fucking ugly support at the behind
AFTER the presentation I got a deep impact in my brain
like bluring whole day and moody
I want to be almost perfect in my design

chill sunday and headache monday

time running out man gonna do something
i did touch my project for an hour only
this is sucks man !!! addicted play games
losing more than winning OMG!!!
why when i was owning the game people quit the game

so monday's clock has started to tick-tok ...
what am i doin here ??
hah ... geting some irritating messages
i taught girls only will get those messages
thtat guy sms me just for asking another lady's number
is like WTF!! you sms just to get known of my ladies friend
myself dint have a girlfriend somemore intro to you somemore and im not sure who are "you "

sigh.....
did anyboy have a time stopper ??
stop the time do my project and continue the time play game
HAH what a good imagination

i was thinking what ways of design to impress those lecturer
best design ?
best development ?
best product ?

i will post my AVP come out
you wait and see

Ending of Saturday

1st day of posting something up...
today i was gonna finish up my final project

guess what ... stick on the comp playing DOTA
Tauren chieftain new hero which DAMM IMBA ... no need powerful item could enough to kill a few enemy ... is like WTH.

Stop the dota
FINAL project just next three days only
1st drawing/painting
-(AVP) alien vs predators revolution
2nd basic design
-design different kind of thing background with DOTA
3rd Colour visual
-6 different type potrait

this gonna blow my head off .. shit !!!
somemore enjoying pizza ...

whole day rain rain rain ...
stop the rain la ....